Heather;; ♥'s Polyvore

I just don't even see a point anymore...its boring. I never come on. No one ever comments on my sets if I want them to...
Its just whatever. I'll be rarely coming on from now on so yeah.

I might be the girl that you look at and think, "Wow, shes so pretty. She must be perfect."
At least, thats what I've been told. But you see, thats not the way I view myself.
I stand in front of my bathroom mirror, picking out flaws, making myself believe that I'm a monster.
I stand in front of my mirror, and see everything wrong with my face...my body...my hair, and I wonder, what do other people think of me?
How can any guy fall in love with this?
Which brings me to say, I've never had a boyfriend my whole 16 years of being alive so far.
I've been kissed, but it didn't mean anything.
I get told I'm the perfect girl by all the wrong guys.
I've been wanted for only sex a number of times.
I get intimidated easily, and don't like being around girls who I think are pretty because I feel like they look down on me.
I'm self conscious.
Being as laid back as I am, I being to think I'm boring.
Sometimes I think I'm awkward.
I've been fucked over too many times to count.
At times I binge eat. I've never purged, though I've felt like doing it.
I complain way too much, sarcastic, cocky, whatever...but I still try to be nice to everyone.
I crack under peer pressure way too easily. I gave into drinking and smoking weed.
The littlest things annoy me and because of that, I only have around 5 CLOSE friends.
I forgive too easily and too often...people often take advantage of that.
I do my own thing, I don't like a lot of help on certain things, and I can't wait to get the fuck out of highschool.
I hate obnoxious, attention seeking bitches.
One thing I take pride in myself, is that I'm not a fake person. I'm not two faced, I don't put on a show, I don't wear a lot of makeup. I'm just me.
I love my parents and brother, a lot, even if we do fight.
I also love driving, imma crazy driver, I should probably change that! haha
I had a lot more ideas for this, but I forgot them all :(
 
SOOOO I'm gonna go. Toodles.

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I want to read Looking for Alaska.
 
I like books that are fantasy, murder mysteries, love stories but GOOD ones, real life problems including drugs and alcohol and death, scary books, etc....
Just basically anything good and not too juvenile.
 
Thank youuuu :)

I feel like I need to confess everything to someone that I hide from my parents, some things that I hide from my friends.
 
Fuckkkk bro. Its never fucking easy.

How can you resist?

Workout plan here:
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---Breakfast
1/2 grapefruit
1 slice whole wheat, double fiber bread, toasted with 1 tablespoon peanut butter on top
1 hard boiled egg white
8 ounces of water
Over the summer I had different breakfasts to see what I like best, and I really like this one. I eat it everyday. Grapefruit is a good start, its a serving of fruit, theres fiber in it so it helps fill you up. The toast is like my "cereal" but a healthier version. The egg white is only 15 calories and its full of protein so I stay satisfied until lunch time.
 
---Lunch
What I PLAN on doing is making something from undressedskeleton.tumblr.com the night before then coming home for lunch and eating it and it should last a few days.
That and a salad with 8 ounces of water.
 
---Snacks
Fruit, vegetables, crackers, more stuff from undressedskeleton!
 
--Dinner
Whatever is being served along with milk.
 
Fridays will be my cheat days, no working out, and I'll allow myself to unhealthy stuff so I don't go insane.

Sooo I kind of stopped working out over the summer. I went to the gym like a total of 5 times.
But next week I'm going to get a crack on working out again so heres mah work out schedule!:
 
---Sunday
Figure skating
 
---Monday
Go to the gym
35 minutes of elliptical
10-15 minutes of treadmill (walking and/or running)
30 minutes of weight training (legs, arms, stomach)
 
---Tuesday
Figure skating
 
---Wednesday
Go to the gym
35 minutes of elliptical
10-15 minutes of treadmill (walking and/or running)
30 minutes of weight training (legs, arms, stomach)
 
---Thursday
Figure skating
 
---Friday
DAY OFF! :)
 
---Saturday
Go to the gym
35 minutes of elliptical
10-15 minutes of treadmill (walking and/or running)
30 minutes of weight training (legs, arms, stomach)
10-15 laps in the pool
 
So there it is.
 
More detailed:
-Elliptical: On the elliptical, I do interval training I'm pretty sure, on gluets 2. So its basically a really, really good but workout and it works my thighs too.
-Treadmill: If I walk, I go at a speed of 4.0 MPH and if I'm running I go 6.3 MPH. I'm a slow runner, I know.
-Legs: I go on the hip adductor and hip abductor. They're really good for toning your thighs and one of them is really good for your butt too, but I forgot what one. I do 150 reps for each leg at 40 pounds.
-Arms: I do the seated row, 20 reps at 40 pounds. I do a couple more, but I forgot what they're called.
-Stomach: I do a torso rotation which works my obliques. I do about 40 reps on each side at 50 pounds. I also go on the crunches machine which works my abs, obviously. I do 60 at 80 pounds. I ALSO go on this thing that you lay back on, get an 8 pound medicine ball and do about 30 crunches.
-Pool laps: I do laps in the pool, on my back since thats the only good way I can swim. Swimming is a lot harder than you think it'd be, its a good workout.
 
And yeah thats pretty much it for the gym. At skating I practice whatever I need to practice.
 
SOoooo yeah. I'm also going to make a food eating plan thing again, since I pretty much lost that.
 
THEN I'm going to make a set on my measurements, my weight, goal weight, all that.
I'm determined to get into awesome shape this year, even though people say I already am. BS.

Okay. So on my birthday party while my friends went to go get weed (which I didn't smoke, jsyk) one of my best guy friends was like "Do you think Heather's hott?"
And this other guy that I've known foreverrrrrr said "I think shes an 8.7, but I'm leaning on an 8.9"
 
:LJfkl;ajeiopaj oifeja o ij. THAT MAKES ME SO EXCITED. Lol. Because I think he's really hott. And pretty much every person thats friends with me has told me multiple times that we'd be the cutest couple in the world.
I know what was said in the car from my friend in case you're wonderin.
 
But we invited him to go to the beach with us, but I don't think hes going to go :/
 
Honestly though, if people think I'm pretty, why don't I feel like I am?!??! My friend said that someone on her tennis team said that I was one of the prettiest girls in the school, but I feel like I'm just average joe, not pretty, but not ugly.
 
But yeah. Idk why I just typed all this, its not like anyone reads my shit anyway.

I'm soo excited for tomorrow!
So in the morning I'm thinking I'm going to cook breakfast consisting of a crepe filled with a Nutella mixture with strawberries in it. Its SOOOOOO good!
 
Then we're driving down to the bigger airport in my state to drop my brother off because he's going to California for a little bit.
And after that, me and my mom are spending the day shopping :) I'm seriously so excited. AHHH!
 
And at night I'm having a sleepover with one of my bestfriends :)
 
So excited. Yayayayay :D