I might be the girl that you look at and think, "Wow, shes so pretty. She must be perfect."
At least, thats what I've been told. But you see, thats not the way I view myself.
I stand in front of my bathroom mirror, picking out flaws, making myself believe that I'm a monster.
I stand in front of my mirror, and see everything wrong with my face...my body...my hair, and I wonder, what do other people think of me?
How can any guy fall in love with this?
Which brings me to say, I've never had a boyfriend my whole 16 years of being alive so far.
I've been kissed, but it didn't mean anything.
I get told I'm the perfect girl by all the wrong guys.
I've been wanted for only sex a number of times.
I get intimidated easily, and don't like being around girls who I think are pretty because I feel like they look down on me.
I'm self conscious.
Being as laid back as I am, I being to think I'm boring.
Sometimes I think I'm awkward.
I've been fucked over too many times to count.
At times I binge eat. I've never purged, though I've felt like doing it.
I complain way too much, sarcastic, cocky, whatever...but I still try to be nice to everyone.
I crack under peer pressure way too easily. I gave into drinking and smoking weed.
The littlest things annoy me and because of that, I only have around 5 CLOSE friends.
I forgive too easily and too often...people often take advantage of that.
I do my own thing, I don't like a lot of help on certain things, and I can't wait to get the fuck out of highschool.
I hate obnoxious, attention seeking bitches.
One thing I take pride in myself, is that I'm not a fake person. I'm not two faced, I don't put on a show, I don't wear a lot of makeup. I'm just me.
I love my parents and brother, a lot, even if we do fight.
I also love driving, imma crazy driver, I should probably change that! haha
I had a lot more ideas for this, but I forgot them all :(
SOOOO I'm gonna go. Toodles.